yet another boring day...
before i forget...thnk u yixin! for ya sweets...hahaa...but i still everyday so sianz...no diffence one...and i realised i cannot write everything i feel in this blog thingy...juz so different...saeing it out is most appropriate...but still i dun remember things that i want to say...
so weird huh...the way people move along with time...some change for the better some change for the worse...i think i'm still trapped in the past...bad habit...sorrie brother...i noe u'll scold me for that...but u're so far...heh...moving on is tough...cant believe i still cannot accept this jc life...so uptight and unhappy...although i slack...but i dun slack mentally...i still worry now and then...juz that i dun voice it out...so many things to worry...even if i cast them away...they will still be sitting around some corner waiting to be spotted...
hah...realli hope my face will recover soon...i want better self-esteem! now that i got back my mp3 player...i got into some other mentally devastating scenario...i juz dun get it...wad am i so frustrated about...my mind seem to have some blockage...nth comes out...
blogging was something i disagreed with at first...but den i tot again...juz to kill boredom...and to rmb things...i have limited memory space...when the past juz stays rooted in there...everything is so vivid...juz like they juz happened yesterday...i got mixed up wif my dream for reality the other day...think i dreamt of recieving some lit notes...den i asked my lit rep bout it den she said there are no notes...hah...crap man...how cocked up can life get...
something else dat i dun understand...why is it dat i keep vomitting or feel like puking after meals...and i bloody cant stop coughing...punishment rite...for eating too much...dun like it...but hell...cant do anithing...see doctor? i refuse...
i dun seem to understand us humans...i dun like being one...we are assholes...dumbasses...egoistic freaks...haha...thinking too much ppl may say...but it aint too much...its everywhere...juz speakin the obvious thats overlooked...the dumbness of human beings...tryin to do things beyond ourselves...we weren't made to fly...we weren't made to study...we were't made to freakin' discriminate animals...we dun even have strong limps like big animals do...wad are we made for? we are omnivores eh...juz stay with the freakin animals!! cant we do juz dat?! zi tao ku chi like dat...finding individual goals of life...hah...excuses...excuses for unjustified actions...
so weird huh...the way people move along with time...some change for the better some change for the worse...i think i'm still trapped in the past...bad habit...sorrie brother...i noe u'll scold me for that...but u're so far...heh...moving on is tough...cant believe i still cannot accept this jc life...so uptight and unhappy...although i slack...but i dun slack mentally...i still worry now and then...juz that i dun voice it out...so many things to worry...even if i cast them away...they will still be sitting around some corner waiting to be spotted...
hah...realli hope my face will recover soon...i want better self-esteem! now that i got back my mp3 player...i got into some other mentally devastating scenario...i juz dun get it...wad am i so frustrated about...my mind seem to have some blockage...nth comes out...
blogging was something i disagreed with at first...but den i tot again...juz to kill boredom...and to rmb things...i have limited memory space...when the past juz stays rooted in there...everything is so vivid...juz like they juz happened yesterday...i got mixed up wif my dream for reality the other day...think i dreamt of recieving some lit notes...den i asked my lit rep bout it den she said there are no notes...hah...crap man...how cocked up can life get...
something else dat i dun understand...why is it dat i keep vomitting or feel like puking after meals...and i bloody cant stop coughing...punishment rite...for eating too much...dun like it...but hell...cant do anithing...see doctor? i refuse...
i dun seem to understand us humans...i dun like being one...we are assholes...dumbasses...egoistic freaks...haha...thinking too much ppl may say...but it aint too much...its everywhere...juz speakin the obvious thats overlooked...the dumbness of human beings...tryin to do things beyond ourselves...we weren't made to fly...we weren't made to study...we were't made to freakin' discriminate animals...we dun even have strong limps like big animals do...wad are we made for? we are omnivores eh...juz stay with the freakin animals!! cant we do juz dat?! zi tao ku chi like dat...finding individual goals of life...hah...excuses...excuses for unjustified actions...
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